Why Must

7-29-97

Why must I feel this way
still in love
still in lust
wanting a taste of you
needing a taste of you
then
you let me get one
then you stop me
and say "I don't want to lead you on"
all I want is to please you
It might just be one time
it might not be the last time
but God does it feel nice
nice being next to you
nice being alone with you
feels so right, but then all wrong
touching your bare skin with my hands
massaging your tender breasts
wanting more
wanting your lips against mine
the sweet taste of your lips
but not getting it
why do we do this
it happens not enough
or is it too much
why do you make me feel this way
why are you so irresistable
why do you still make me hurt
I guess that question will be answered in time
but will I wait
I don't know
I wish I did
I wish I didn't feel this way.