I Can't, I Won't

Now you're gone
and I'm alone
I have my choice
and I have chosen
yet he will never be you
I find that a part of me hates you
the other screaming to forgive
but I can't
I won't
no more guilt trips
or having to choose between
no more tears I cry for you
no more loving you
I hope your friends are happy
your family too
I know they hate me
even more now that you weep
I don't understand why
when you trash me
you say you want me back
but I can't
I won't
I remember your threats
don't take kindly to them
and I feel numb inside
not used to an empty bed
an empty room
an empty space in my heart
and I hate you
like those before
I said "I love you"
mistake once more
and my past crashes down
drowning me in pain
as I know it will happen again
you said you'd try
and you'd fight to keep me
but you lied
it rings in my ears
and it's hard to believe
that you oved me
ever
I should beleive in everything
but I can't
I won't
I am foolish, I know
I never asked for this
you said you wish we'd never been
and I take a drink to forget it
a toast to you
a smile and caress for him
my decision done
as is yours
and you want it reversed
but I can't
I won't.