The Show Must Go On

The show must go on
they say
but why must I suffer
alone
so alone
without the love I crave
in silence
deafening roar
a sea of hurt
while darkness beckons sweetly
the final end
to my very own story
my own little horror
as my life mocks cruelly
and laughter rings
clearly
so clearly
pumping fear and dread
into my lifeless veins
and my soul and heart
spills mecilessly to the ground
that laps at the trickles
greedily
the hunger never fed
and my eyes see too much
as my brain screams
for numbness
and my ears hear too much
as they want to be closed
to anything and all
nothing else matters
but a stop to the pain
sleep
eternal sleep
The show must go on
they say
and they feel nothing
but their lovers
and they don't cry
every night
to fall asleep
or wake from nightmares
only to realize
they were reality
the bol and gracesless truth
that I have no one
no one to say it's ok
or to understand
and they are blind
and deaf
all they know
is the comfort I crave
is theirs forever
and for the taking
stealing
stealing all I need
to just exist at all
in this world
of pain and constant rejection
they don't see me
or hear me
or care that I am here
and yet still they say
the show must go on
that you mustn't give up
and I ask what that would be.