Blood Tears

The trees call my name
a whisper on the wind
red on the horizon
as I watch the sun banished
duck falling over me
and my eyes cry blood tears
my heart shattered
I stare at a clouded moon
shining on my soul
drawing me
and I want to go
alone
in my bed
in my mind
sober too hard to handle
I crave a veil
so I don't have to think
only watch as my life crumbles
the remains sinking deeper
into an oblivion of smoke
my body needs touched
my heart caressed
and blood is on my hands
as nails dig hard
I lay down to die
my decision decided
the drugs waiting to take effect
and I watch shadows circling
shrieking my name
the trees silent
yet swaying to my beat
pulsing breath
rising chest
and I fade in and out
your scent in my mind
covering me
so that I feel nothing
and remember only you
how wave upon wave
thrashed me
how you've hurt me
and loved me
we were maybe meant to be
but no more
as I am blind
hearing only myself
struggling
wanting to give up
needing nothing now
my mind screams silence
and I begin to tremble
crying blood tears
forever
upon my grave
alone
the circle spiraling in my brain
until the chants stop
the trees are still
the shadows hide
and death steps out
beckoning
with promises of lust
finally fulfilled
my head hammering
as I reach for his hand
scythe drawing nearer
creeping up
cloak enshrouding me
painless
hood pulled back
and I see it was you
I crave
you promise
so that I succumb to your music
music chant
crazy
gone
you and me
gone
and I'm alone
awake
crazy
hearing chants
and trees whispering
then nothing
black abyss
as I cry blood tears.