Choice

I fuck everyone up
everybody's day is shot
everybody's life I destroy
even yours
though I wish we could be
alone
your choice to be made
like mine was
but I was wrong in my decision
please don't make the same mistake
choose not the one who hurts you
makes your decisions
tells you what to do
and here I am, fucking with your life
your precious love
and it hurts so much
to see you suffer more
now that I'm back
I'm sorry
though my pain is deep
and the tears held back
now fall
a damn unleashed
at this fuck-up I call
existence
I control not what I do
please forgive
the thoughtlessness I deliver
when all I want is you
your happiness your love
your body
a jarring ache reveals
so I think of how we were
so caught up in passion
entangled in a web of fire
as you were my captor
give me all this back
too long I have waited
for you alone
give me your soul
and I'll find how you love me
as you say you do
give me the freedom
of holding you tighter
with each thrust
of our immortality together
each atom on end
give me your pain
so I may heal
just give me yourself
so I may quit the torture
be whole
like my only dream
don't let it end up like before
choose correct
and we'll be one once more
allow the hunger to overtake
my body
my mind
and our bond
nympho
wanton
I am for you
right now please come to me
all sins forgiven
all battles abandoned
the night dances for reunion
all of this and more
don't let me fuck this up
when you have the choice.